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I need advice! 

Okay. So. I’m taking AP Calculus. It’s my first AP class, but I’ve been taking advanced math classes since third grade (I was on the math team hollaaa). Math is by far my best subject. I don’t know, I’ve just always been good at it (and I like doing math problems— is that too nerdy to admit?!). 

Anyway, this hasn’t been the best year for me. I can’t pinpoint a particular event and nothing tragic has happened. I’ve just been in a “mood” where I haven’t been motivated at all and just have 0 confidence. I’ve always been a perfectionist and tasks are made a billion times more difficult because of that, but this year just the thought of doing anything stresses me out. I also haven’t been able to sleep well and my memory has become so poor. I’m obviously in a very different place than where I was a year ago when I was talking Precalculus. It’s not like I took that class without effort, either. Some nights before tests, I’d spend 5-7 hours on review, but I was up for the challenge then. Now? Not so much. The thought makes me want to hide in a corner.

So… yeah. I ramble. To the point of my post: I’m wondering if I should drop out of AP Calculus. It’s not a requirement. I’ve already met all of my math requirements for graduation (oh yeah, I’m a senior). I’m so conflicted. I’d hate to say I dropped out of a math class. I was looking forward to the class until it started and I didn’t remember a huge chunk of the information from Precalculus (and this is an AP class so review is limited). Again, it’s really hard for me to remember things now (probably because my brain is 95% Paramore lyrics). I believe that once the class really got rolling, I’d be able to remember a lot and do well. But I also don’t want to chance me not doing well, because I’ve never made lower than an A and it would literally crush me if I broke that in my last year like you don’t understand I’d probably cry for the rest of my life.

Your senior year is supposed to be relatively relaxed anyway. This semester, this is my only stressful class. It’d be great to not stress as much considering 99% of my life is spent stressed over something. I’m also taking Creative Writing, a class I’ve been wanting to take for a very long time. I would love to just focus on that class, because writing is a career option I’m heavily considering (and while I love math, I do not want a career in math). My Calculus class is also year-long while my other classes are for a semester (we’re block schedule rather than period).

AND one last thing is that next semester I will have English where we will be doing senior/graduation/class projects, which is a huge project that I’ve been dreading for over five years.

OKAY so if you’ve actually read this full thing (God bless you), do you have any advice? I’m 50/50 on my decision right now and it has to be made soon. Thank you for the help/consideration/time because dang I can write a lot!


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